What if I want to be a narrative writer and tell stories, about me and my life. I want to breathe reality into the air. I want the brutal honesty and sharp vulnerability to be slathered onto the screen. Especially in these times where we are incessentatly barraged with reality tv shows like The Real Housewives of New Jersey or The Bachelor/Bachelorette. Not to say that I am not a fan of these shows, because I am very guilty of having my own unhealthy obsession with at least on of them...but, I want more. I wish that I could believe that shows like this, deemed 'reality' by producers and gobbled up by millions of viewers a week, actually have reality in them, but I don't. I see the happily ever after type scenarios that are displayed after eight weeks of romancing, and I fall in love with the idea of falling in love that fast. In fact, I did it myself. But, that relationship lasted just under six months. It wasn't the forever that I thought it would be. And you know what? I think that shows like The Bachelor and Disney princess films totally screw(ed) me up; thinking of the prince charming waiting for me out there. It really is a bunch of flooey. I am not trying to be pessimistic, just that there is a lot of pressure to find "the one" and be "happily-ever-after" forever, and ever. But, what happens if your standards are so high (based on fictional animated characters or a false setting of romance and speed-dating) that you feel like you are constantly searching for that one? Even though, that one may be, in fact, right in front of you and you can't see it because of the delusional images you are 'supposed' to be searching for?! It is so frustrating.
How do I find the truth, the reality in my life and not get caught up in the fluff of romantic notions?
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dedicate yourself to feeling the moment you are in, unconditionally, perpetually. The ground transmits all the information you need to know. Feel it.
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